What I Assume

April 30th

Snow runs straight across the road parallel and pale gray,
plankton on the unseen currents.
Normally Summer upstages Spring here,
but this time April ends with this howl,
having inhaled numberless seasons of mockery.

A magician, before diving in the tank
to break his breath against death,
first fills his blood with euphoria,
and stores it.

Everything is backwards.
I've wakened from the walking sleep of day
ending the warmest April in this freezing fool's night;
The heater in my car feels cold like a vacuum;
Classical plays on the punk rock station;
Twenty minutes ago my head rested on my wife's warm ribs,
who scratched my hair-thick head.
My nose whistled, a mewing puppy,
comfortable and quiet in the face of peeling laughter
the universal joke whispered every day.
I've never caught the punchline, but I've heard enough;
even though they get the details wrong,
details don't matter.

The universe, they say, will contract like an elastic band,
and with itself bury itself,
or it will expand until the elastic breaks.
And if it contracts, it will expand.
either way it must have somewhere to go;
oblivion or persistence—involuntary either way.

And now the snow has stopped, on the road:
remnants of a light Spring rain.
And the car has warmed.
And the green light grins, Go.
Go to a place you never go
for a hot drink and a cinnamon roll.
The light licks it's green lips,
Go,
and,
There's nothing you've forgotten,
nothing left at home,
except the funny passing moments
you call love.

Eventually the puppy will begin
to dig holes for his bones;
not out of practicality, but because they are so precious
he knows not what else to do.
He'll plan to come back,
but never will,
having forgotten the holes and the bones, and any
way, having
somewhere better else to go.